Ellis Faas Creamy Eyes Is the Best Cream Eyeshadow I’ve Ever Used

Liquid eyeshadow is one of those products that always looks so promising in its packaging. That dewy texture whispers, “Try me—I’ll coat your eyelids with the otherworldly gleam of an angel’s halo.” But then, I pat it on and inevitably find myself disappointed. Sometimes, the color creases within a couple of hours, migrating around my eyes in sad trickles of shimmery pigment. Or, the rich shade in the tube turns into a disappointingly patchy echo of color when it meets my face. Mattes, shimmers, glitters—I’ve tried them all and come to the conclusion that this is one product that tends to look better the further away it is from you.

There is one glowing exception to the rule, which I’ve hesitated to tell people about for two reasons. First, it’s not the most affordable option around; the matte formulas are $34 a pop, while the glitters retail at $39. If you thought Lidstar was on the verge of being too expensive, then you’ll probably have some reservations about this price tag. There’s also the question of the delivery system. In its previous iteration, it featured a twist-up brush that spewed out a bit too much product every time. I loved it so much that I forgave it anyway, scooping up the excess product and carefully storing it in the tiny jars I formerly used to preserve my custom-mixed oil paints. Would everyone else want to do this too, though? Doubtful.

Happily, Ellis Faas (the brand in question) announced a surprise re-design this month. This means I can finally tell you—with zero reservations—that these are worth every penny of their price tag. The update features a precise doe-foot applicator that allows you to spread the shadows on your lids like a gloss, then blend them out with your finger. There’s no wasted product, and I now have greater control over exactly where the formula goes.

As excited as I am about the makeover, it’s not the real reason why I believe these are the best liquid eyeshadows ever created. It’s the shade selection and formula that will win your heart over. I know the colors might not look particularly special upon first glance. The browns and purples and blues seem like shades you already own, and maybe they don’t thrill you straight out of the pen. But, I’m telling you, magic happens when you apply them.

Gently dab a few dots on each eyelid—you only need the tiniest touch of product. Then, take your ringer finger and diffuse the color. You’ll find that the formula seems to evaporate into thin air as you pat it in. Once you’re satisfied with the results, stop smudging and smearing it, and it dries down instantly. Unlike most liquid shadows, I can’t feel this on my lids at all once it sets; the texture goes from wet to fully dry in seconds and doesn’t budge for the rest of the day (even if I neglect to use primer).

The results? Incomparable. Faas is an iconic makeup artist and her instinctive understanding of skin tone, light, and shadow shows in every shade. Because no matter how unwearable they may appear when swatched as thick coats of color, they’re unbelievably flattering once you actually apply them. I particularly love the mattes in Creamy Eyes E114 (Bordeaux Red), E118 (Light Blue), and E125 (Khaki Green). E125 in particular transforms into the prettiest veil of moody green—the olive-tinged smoky eye of my dreams, the one I have only ever been able to create with one of these pens.

You’ll probably accuse me of exaggerating when I say this, but the glitters are even better. Ellis Faas calls them Lights, and they come gliding out of the pen like molten rivers of metal. Yet, they dry down to that same, featherweight finish—no gritty glitter particles, no sticky remnants to be found. They’re beautiful alone, but I love pairing them with the Creamy Eyes shades to create layers of dimension. (The bronzed E303 pairs perfectly with E125, try it.) Worn together, they give my eyes the hazy sfumato effect of a da Vinci painting. Yes, I am saying that these shadows will turn you into a work of Renaissance art. It’s something you just need to discover for yourself—thank me later.

Ellis Faas Creamy Eyes, $34, ellisfaas.com; Ellis Faas Lights, $39, ellisfaas.com

Brittany Cartwright on ‘Vanderpump Rules,’ Jax Taylor, and Social Media Trolls

The cast of Vanderpump Rules—Bravo’s hit reality series about a group of sometimes-servers and bartenders in Los Angeles—will fight about anything: birthday parties, cheating accusations, rap lyrics, one another’s physiques, couch cushions, pasta. (Though to be fair, that one probably wasn’t about the pasta.) During the course of seven seasons, this group has hooked up and broken up, friendships have started and stopped, and they’ve seldom seen eye-to-eye on anything. Except their love of Brittany Cartwright, the Kentucky-born fiancé of reality TV’s reigning bad boy Jax Taylor.

With her Southern drawl and overwhelmingly accepting disposition, Brittany has been a breath of fresh air for the long-running series filled with characters once described as “pieces of shit” by one of its own leading ladies. Since making her first fresh-from-the-farm appearance in 2015, Cartwright has managed to swoop in and elicit a softer side of the cast’s queen-bee clique Stassi Schroeder, Katie Maloney, and Kristen Doute, women who refer to themselves as the Witches of WeHo. She made impetuous, hard-drinking, conscience-free British DJ James Kennedy feel remorse after he made her cry. She seamlessly charmed the show’s matriarch, Real Housewives of Beverly Hills star Lisa Vanderpump who owns and operates SUR, the restaurant that serves as the series’ central backdrop.

The 29-year-old’s biggest hat trick, however, was pulling a feat few others could have managed: Taming Jax, a man who inspired headlines like “The Villain of Vanderpump Rules” thanks to his knack for lying, pot-stirring, cheating, and drunkenly stealing sunglasses while on vacation on Hawaii, which landed him a year’s probation.

The point is, Cartwright has become the unexpected moral center of Vanderpump Rules. But when I tell her as much when she arrived at the Glamour office, she demures. “I think they all thought I was just a little girl wanting fame or following them around [at the beginning]. I understand. I know what it’s like to have somebody new come around—you don’t know if you can trust them at first. But once they got to know me and realized who I was … what can I say? I try to be myself, and I take their friendships very seriously.”

It seems impossible now that the cast would ever doubt Brittany’s motives, but given her origin story with the show, it’s not too hard to see how they might have. As Brittany tells it, she and Jax first met in Las Vegas after her friend, a fan of the show, saw cast-member Maloney at a bar and asked for a photo. From there, they started taking shots when Jax walked up. “I found out later he was on a date with a girl that night. She walks away, and he comes up to me and gets my number.”

Brittany admits she thought he was hot, but she was fresh out of a relationship and figured nothing would come of it, especially given his role in the reality TV hierarchy. (“You just hear all of the rumors about everything.”) But then he texted her “good morning beautiful” the next day and asked to see her. They spent the rest of their time in Vegas together. “He told me after the first night we met that he wanted me to move to L.A.,” she says. She flew home to Kentucky instead, but they talked daily. She started going to L.A. every other week to visit. After two months, she moved to be with him. “I’ve never done anything that crazy before in my life. But it just felt so right.”

Moving to a new city came with its challenges: Brittany and Jax were living together in his tiny West Hollywood apartment and still getting to know each other. The studio didn’t have central air or closet space, and if she used her hairdryer the whole floor’s electricity would combust. And she now was on a hit reality show with little preparation. “[Jax said], ‘I think they’re going to want you to film. It’s probably not going to be a lot. Do you care?’ At first I was like, ‘Umm, I don’t know.’ I was so nervous.” His advice: Just focus on him and ignore the cameras. But, “That’s really hard when you’re brand new. By that time, he was a seasoned pro.”

“I didn’t really speak the whole first season I was on,” she continues. “I kind of just let Jax lead the way.” The first day she filmed, she went to SUR and met Vanderpump—an unexpected encounter that she wasn’t fully briefed on, thanks to Jax, who took her shopping beforehand to get an outfit. According to Brittany, she thought she was going to the restaurant to meet the cast, not her potential new boss. “He picks me out this sexy little romper because he was like, ‘All the girls dress sexy there. It’s West Hollywood.'”

What her new guy neglected to tell her that she wasn’t meeting Lisa to just say hello, but was about to undergo a job interview for a server position—viewers will remember this as Brittany’s first official scene—while wearing a barely-there romper, with no résumé prepared. “That was like one of the most nerve-wracking things I think I’ve ever done in my life. It probably will always be.”

“[Brittany is] humble and kind—qualities many people in L.A. lack.” — Kristen Doute

When the rest of the cast did meet Brittany, they took to her quickly—a rarity for groups of women on reality TV who almost always seem to exhibit a type of xenophobic “you can’t sit with us” mentality when it comes to new and attractive blood. “I’ve been very lucky, I guess. I haven’t had any bad fights or anything,” she says. It’s hard to stay completely out of the drama, but Brittany usually refuses to pick sides unless a “girl code” is broken. And, shocking to anyone who regularly watches Bravo, her friends respect that. “I’m not huge on the drama,” she says. “I like to help bring people together more than push them away from each other.”

Kristen Doute told me via email that Brittany lends a “soothing, sort of calmness” during these chaotic moments. “[She’s] truthful but not judgmental … She’s humble and kind—something many people in L.A. lack.” Doute—a notoriously tough nut to crack—also said Brittany is everything she could want in a best friend. “She’s kind, sympathetic, trustworthy. My favorite thing about Brittany is her zest for life. She never fails to make me laugh. Her energy is contagious.”

So, yes, everybody on Vanderpump Rules loves Brittany. But with any type of spotlight and status comes a hoard of social media trolls. If she’s wearing too much makeup in a picture, they say L.A. has “changed” her. Some commenters will call her fake and posit she’s had her nose done. “I haven’t had any plastic surgery on my face,” Brittany says. “No matter what I’ve done I would tell it. I had my boobs done on national TV, so let’s be real. I’m not hiding anything. I had Botox once six months ago. I don’t even know if it’s still in there anymore. I had Kybella under my chin awhile ago. But I also lost 25 pounds. I hate when people say I got a nose job or my lips done, because I lose weight in my face.”

“I’ve aged,” she continues. “If you’re a true fan of Vanderpump Rules, go back to the first episode when I started. Look at how skinny I was! I gained weight on the show, then lost weight again.”

The plastic surgery comments don’t cut too deep—”If they want to say I had a nose job, whatever. I know I didn’t have a nose job.”—but the judgments on her character do. Like people saying, “I thought you were a Christian” after she posts a sexy photo. Those get to her.

Her fiancé and the rest of the cast help keep things in perspective. “Jax [will say], ‘Stop reading that, Brittany.’ I know he loves me, and that’s another reason I think [negative attention] doesn’t bother me: All these people comment on my looks, and I’m like, ‘Well, I’m engaged. I don’t care what you think.'”

When she does get overwhelmed by it all—with 1 million Instagram followers at press time, how could she not?—she says she craves alone time, snuggled up in bed with her dogs, Monroe and Kingsley. Her values kick into overdrive: She calls her mom every day. She talks to her friends back home (their group chat is called Cheaper Than Therapy). She prays and goes to church.

The plastic surgery comments don’t cut too deep, but the judgments on her character do. Like people saying, “I thought you were a Christian” after she posts a sexy photo.

She also has a chat group with the women on the series—called the Pumpettes—where they share screen shots of nasty comments. They’ll joke about them and give each other compliments. “Because of Brittany I feel more comfortable in my own skin than I ever have,” Doute says. “In the social-media world we live in, it can be very easy to sweat the small stuff—whether it’s people attacking our character or physical appearance. She always picks me up when I’m down and is able to show me a more positive outlook.”

And, in true Brittany fashion, she’s found a way to hit back at haters with that positive outlook. “I swear it’s mothers who are writing mean things about my looks [the most],” she says. “So I’ve found the best way to get under a cyberbully’s skin: If they have kids and they’re writing horrible things, just go to their picture, tell them how beautiful their child is, and say that you hope one day their child never has to deal with cyberbullying like I am from you.” She says the trolls usually apologize.

Brittany says this season of Vanderpump Rules is her favorite yet. She dreaded filming last year, because she knew the issues she and Jax were facing were going to be an inescapable arc—a cheating scandal, after all, makes good reality TV. Now, though, she’s excited for everybody—cast members and fans—to see how much her man has changed and how hard he’s trying. Brittany says it’s the little things that really show the effort he’s making: He helps out around the house, he makes her (turkey) sandwiches, he buys her tampons at the store, he’ll surprise her with gifts, he’s even going to church on his own. “I’m so proud of him,” she says. “He has changed almost 100%. He tries harder at every single thing he does, and it makes me….” She tears up. “After his dad passed away, he could’ve spiraled out of control. Went crazy. Just became this horrible person, because he was so unhappy with himself. But he turned it all around and made every change he wanted to make to better himself.”

This new Jax also came with a marriage proposal during the season premiere. “I had an idea it might happen this summer, but I didn’t know it was going to be that early,” she says. “It was perfect.” Jax popped the question at Neptune’s Net, a classic, casual Malibu seafood spot. (“We love crab places. It’s what we do, whether we’re in Florida, Kentucky, anywhere we’re at we always find a crab place.”) The show’s editing made the location seem like a random choice, but Brittany says it holds importance, having been the scene of an early date and also a favorite of Jax’s late father.

Brittany cried watching the footage back. “He’s my best friend in the whole world,” she says. “We want to be together all the time. No matter what I always saw these good parts of Jax, even when we were fighting. People on the show only see the worst parts, of course, but knowing his heart and knowing how great he actually was kept me going. I loved him too much to let him go, honestly.”

And now, she’s looking forward to planning the wedding and the business ventures they’re starting (beer cheese, cocktail mixers). “I’m so excited for us to have a good season for once. This season is a lot of me and Jax being happy and our friends slowly getting on board with that. He had to prove to everybody that he really has changed.” Brittany says they also want to be parents, though it might be tricky with the show. “I don’t know how having a baby on Vanderpump Rules with all the drama…I think as we grow the show might have to grow a little bit too,” she says. “But we’ll see. I can’t imagine Jax not being on TV in some way.”

Whatever happens, Brittany trusts they can tackle it as a team. “It would be very easy to get lost,” she says. “At the end of the day you have to be very confident in yourself. I know I’m not a bad person. I know I have a great family. I know I have great friends. I know at the end of the day, I have to get back to that and being a Christian woman.”

Anna Moeslein is Glamour’s senior editor. Follow her on Twitter and Instagram @annamoeslein.

Photographs by Michelle Rose Sulcov
Fashion stylist: Amy Hou
Hair and makeup: Mia Santiago at See Management

Lead image: Self-Portrait sweater, $340, self-portrait-studio.com. Shashi necklace, $58, shopshashi.com. Lady Grey ear cuffs, $180, ladygreyjewelry.com.

The Kardashian-Jenners Are Discontinuing Their Apps in 2019

It’s the end of an era: Kim Kardashian announced on Thursday, December 20, that she and her sisters are discontinuing their apps in 2019. “We’ve had an incredible experience connecting with all of you through our apps these past few years but have made the difficult decision to no longer continue updating in 2019,” Kim wrote on her website, according to People. “We truly hope you’ve enjoyed this journey as much as we have, and we look forward to what’s ahead.”

I’m devastated. How are we going to get insider information on the social media-shy Kardashian-Jenners now?! It’s not like they have active Instagram accounts or Twitter fingers or a long-running reality show called Keeping Up With the Kardashians or anything. These apps were our only lifelines to Kylie’s siiiiick wardrobe, and now they’re gone. It was the best $2.99-per-month you’ve ever spent!

OK, I’m kidding. This definitely won’t be the last time we hear from Kim, Kourtney, Kylie, Kendall, and Khloé. That being said, their apps did produce some moments that historians will remember in the years to come. And by historians, I mean me. Here are just nine of those times:

1. Khloé’s advice for looking “thin AF” in photos Sigh. I have many thoughts on this.

2. Kourtney’s sad tips for avoiding sugar. Monitoring your soda intake is a reasonable request, but making your own salad dressing? Who has time for that, Kourtney? Who?!

3. When Kylie debunked rumors in a gloriously monotonous tone. “That’s disgusting,” Kylie said of the reports that she slept with Scott Disick. “Don’t ever ask me anything like that ever again.” It’s amazing how her vocal inflection here is exactly the same as when she talks about salads.

4. Kylie’s legendary fashion captions. Which always featured the words “sick” and “dope.” Didn’t you hear? She loves breaking the rules!

PHOTO: Kylie Jenner App

5. Kourtney teaching us how to eat a Reese’s peanut butter cup. She revolutionized the snack food industry in the process. All other candy is canceled!

6. When Khloé and Kourtney debated if either of them would be president or First Lady of the United States. This is the administration we deserve.

7. When Kim eviscerated Kourtney for not having her app ready to launch with the other sisters. OK, so this didn’t happen on the app, but it was drama around the app. Basically, Kourtney said giving birth to her third child, Reign, caused a delay in her app’s development, but Kim wasn’t here for this. I’ll just leave Kim’s exact quote to Kourtney here because it’s too good: “No excuses. You knew you were having this baby nine months before you did, and you knew you had this app a year ago…You’re not special.”

8. Kourtney’s daily food breakdown. She drinks “one tablespoon of organic apple cider vinegar mixed into a glass of water” every morning. Literally thank you, next.

9. And last but not least, all the makeup tutorials with gem quotes like this: “If I literally was stranded and only had this product, this is, like, exactly what I would do.” Survival!

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You Need to Watch the New Men in Black International Trailer Just for Tessa Thompson’s Suits

Hollywood loves a franchise reboot, but it can make the box office feel a little repetitive. I mean, just because we already know and a universe doesn’t mean we need to revisit it every five to ten years. But I have a strong feeling that Men in Black International, which comes out this summer, will be different—and for one very specific reason: Tessa Thompson in suits. (Chris Hemsworth is there, too, I guess.)

Thompson and Hemsworth play agents of the Men in Black’s international operations, working alongside Emma Thompson and Liam Neeson to monitor and police alien activity on Earth. (Will Smith and Tommy Lee Jones, though alluded to, are nowhere to be seen.) The latest installment of the beloved franchise is set primarily in the U.K. and Morocco—but despite the new backdrop, the uniform remains the same. And my goodness, do they look great in those signature black suits.

The first trailer for Men in Black International just dropped, and it’s pretty much a perfect two-and-a-half minutes. I mean, it starts with Thompson walking into the MIB offices in New York wearing a skirt suit, greeted by the other Thompson in a skirt suit. Emma’s character asks, “You really think a black suit is going to solve all your problems?” Tessa perfectly answers, “No, but it looks damn good on you.” I had to pause for a brief shrieking break.

But then—then—you hear, “Oh, snap!” Which signals the beginning of Fergie’s iconic 2006 hit, “London Bridge.” Because they’re going to London. Get it? Another pause for shrieking. Like I said, this trailer is perfect.

You can watch the whole clip above, which sets the scene for a secret global mission that Thompson and Hemsworth, the best celebrity duo to be brought together by the Hollywood machine since Tiffany Haddish and Maya Rudolph at the Oscars, will undertake on the big screen next summer. And I’m beyond ready for two hours of watching them look amazing in suits, preferably in IMAX quality.

Because, hi…

Hello…

I see you…

Em (Tessa Thompson) and H (Chris Hemsworth) in Columbia Pictures' MEN IN BLACK INTERNATIONAL.

PHOTO: Giles Keyte

Men in Black: International arrives in theaters on June 14, 2019, and you will definitely see me there. (Will it be too much if I show up wearing a slim-fit suit?)

8 Foolproof Winter Outfit Ideas to Get You Through Your Style Rut

Just because it’s cold outside doesn’t mean you can’t have as much fun getting dressed as you did during the warmer months. As much as we love the one-and-done sundress that gets us through summer, there are plenty of outfit possibilities that come with wintertime: the coats, the sweaters, the boots… Plus, a season of layering means you just get to wear more of your favorite pieces at once. And there are a handful of hero items you can add to your rotation to streamline the whole getting-dressed process. From shiny puffers and velvet blazers to neon turtlenecks and corduroy jumpsuits, these eight items will make planning your winter outfits that much easier. Shop our favorites under $100, ahead.

Michelle Obama’s Balenciaga Boots Are $4,000 of Glitter Goodness

Michelle Obama has been promoting her autobiographical memoir, Becoming, in a literal stadium tour across the country. And for her most recent stop—at the Barclays Center in Brooklyn, New York—she was interviewed on stage by Sarah Jessica Parker. But the real treat came in the form of her outfit for the evening, a full Balenciaga look so out of this world not even Princess Leia could have dreamed it.

Stars, suns, planets—stand down: The new center of our universe has taken her rightful place in the intergalactic realm. And she has on a pair of thigh-high gold boots so incandescent, scientists recommend the use of special sunglasses to gaze at them, lest we burn our retinas.

What I mean is: Michelle Obama wore a head-to-toe look from Balenciaga last night—a silky, long-sleeved yellow shirtdress with boots so gilded that I will soon file a petition to have the Oscar committee recast its statuette in their image.

Michelle Obama Discusses Her New Book "Becoming" With Sarah Jessica Parker

PHOTO: Dia Dipasupil

There’s “getting dressed,” and then there’s slipping into this—so liquid and luscious that it seems to have molded around Obama. It’s an outfit that channels all the Marvel superheroes combined, but makes it fashion.

Michelle Obama Discusses Her New Book "Becoming" With Sarah Jessica Parker

PHOTO: Dia Dipasupil

The dress was featured on Balenciaga’s Spring 2019 runway during Paris Fashion Week, which means it’s not even available for purchase yet.

Balenciaga : Runway - Paris Fashion Week Womenswear Spring/Summer 2019

PHOTO: Victor VIRGILE

Her pointed-toe, fully sequined, stiletto-heeled, over-the-knee boots, though, are—and they retail for a cool $3,900.

Balenciaga Knife Sequinned Over-the-knee Boots, $3,900, available at MyTheresa.

In all seriousness, Obama acknowledged in conversation with Parker that she knew no matter what she wanted the focus of her time in the White House to be, attention would be paid to her clothes. Given that, she and her team, including stylist Meredith Koop, decided to use their platform to celebrate newer and less-established designers who otherwise wouldn’t get the same level of exposure.

“You can change their lives, which is one of the reasons why we chose Jason Wu for my inaugural gown,” Obama said, adding that she made an extra effort to recognize work from a diverse range of brands and labels. “There are a whole lot of people out here who are trying to make it—young women and immigrants and black folk.” What good luck that Michelle Obama was there to literally and figuratively light the way.

Michelle Obama Discusses Her New Book "Becoming" With Sarah Jessica Parker

PHOTO: Dia Dipasupil

While she was in the White House, Obama, like other First Ladies before and after her, occasionally faced criticism from the public for the price tag of a few designer garments she wore, which some thought were too expensive for a civil servant. Now that she’s a private citizen, though, she can wear all the runway Balenciaga she wants—and people are loving it.

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Naomi Campbell Somehow Just Landed Her First Beauty Campaign

Would you believe it if we told you that supermodel Naomi Campbell has never had a beauty contract until now? It sounds bonkers given that she’s reigned supreme over magazine covers and runways for nearly 30 years, but—somehow—it’s true.

Thankfully, this egregious situation has been rectified as Campbell has just been named the new face of Nars Cosmetics for its spring 2019 campaign. “Naomi is a living icon and brings such strong personality to the camera,” says François Nars, the company’s founder who also photographed Campbell for the brand. “She and I are like family. I have known her since the very beginning of her career. From the start, I have admired her, her beauty, and her style.”

“Very excited to be the new face of NARS Cosmetics 🖤 Shot by my dear friend François Nars✨,” Campbell wrote announcing the news to her 6.1 million Instagram followers.

It’s rather mind-boggling that at 48, Campbell is still experiencing “firsts” in her incredible career. Of course, she is one of the original supermodels who rose to international superstardom in the ’80s and ’90s. And she’s been breaking barriers ever since. In 1988, she was the first black woman to appear on the cover of French Vogue and in 1989 she was the first black model to grace American Vogue‘s coveted September issue.

Campbell has also long been a voice for diversity and inclusion in the fashion and beauty worlds. And the fact that she’s only now getting her first beauty campaign in 2018 is evidence that more work is necessary. “I’ve never done [a beauty campaign] for anyone. People say, ‘Oh you’ve got beautiful skin’ and yet I’ve never done one,” Campbell told The Evening Standard in 2017. The writer of the piece also noted, “She gives me a look that says, ‘You know why.'” Mmhmm.

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Eliza Dushku Responds to CBS Sexual Harassment Scandal with a Powerful Op-Ed

Last week, a New York Times report reported that CBS had paid a $9.5 million settlement to actress Eliza Dushku, of Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Bring It On fame, after claims of sexual harassment on the set of the network’s show Bull.

Dushku’s story was revealed as part of the network’s investigation of Les Moonves, the former chief executive who was fired after multiple women accused him of inappropriate conduct. Dushku declined to be interviewed for the Times piece—she says she was trying to honor the settlement agreement—but after reading the Times story and comments by former co-star Michael Weatherly wrote a powerful op-ed for the Boston Globe with her side of the story.

Dushku says that she was hired for a guest-starring role on Bull that was meant to turn into a co-lead in the following season. She lays out the case that Michael Weatherly, harassed her from early on, including an inappropriate joke about a “rape van,” sexual comments, mimicking penis jousting, and a remark about having a threesome with her, which was also echoed later by a crew member—all of which, she says, was captured on tape. “During the course of taping our show, I made some jokes mocking some lines in the script,” Weatherly said in the statement to the Times. “When Eliza told me that she wasn’t comfortable with my language and attempt at humor, I was mortified to have offended her and immediately apologized. After reflecting on this further, I better understand that what I said was both not funny and not appropriate and I am sorry and regret the pain this caused Eliza.”

Dushku takes umbrage with the excuse that she somehow just didn’t get a joke. “In explaining his bad behavior, Weatherly, who plays Dr. Bull, claimed I didn’t get his attempt at humor. That’s how a perpetrator rationalizes when he is caught. For the record, I grew up in Boston with three older brothers and have generally been considered a tomboy,” she writes. “I made a name for myself playing a badass vampire slayer turned tough LA cheerleader; I have worked with numerous leading men, including Robert De Niro, Leonardo DiCaprio , even CBS’s own David Boreanaz. I can handle a locker room. I have been on Howard Stern and was hired by Kevin Smith for a film where I wore a black leather cat suit and played a member of an international diamond-thief-gang-ring. I do not want to hear that I have a ‘humor deficit’ or can’t take a joke. I did not overreact. I took a job and, because I did not want to be harassed, I was fired.”

She goes on to detail how uncomfortable she felt on the set throughout her time on the show. “This was classic workplace harassment that became workplace bullying,” she says. “I was made to feel dread nearly all the time I was in his presence. And this dread continues to come up whenever I think of him and that experience.”

Dushku says she confronted Weatherly about how she felt about his behavior and “aimed to be my diplomatic best.” Instead of an apology, she says that the conversation led directly to her being written off the show after Weatherly contacted a CBS executive.(Weatherly denies that he tried to get her fired. “It’s my recollection that I didn’t tell anyone how they should do their job regarding the hiring or firing of anybody,” he said.)

The actress says Weatherly barely spoke to her in her final days on the set and mocked her with a champagne toast on her final day of filming, after sending a “memo” to cast and crew that nobody should make comments about Dushku’s appearance. She claims the bullying continued during the settlement process when “CBS used as defense a photo of me in a bathing suit, pulled from my own Instagram, as if this suggested I deserved or was not offended by the sexual harassment I experienced.”

While the network eventually paid Dushku $9.5 million, “an amount that represented a portion of what I would have earned had I finished my potential six-year contract,” she also wanted a “culture change.” She requested a meeting with director Steven Spielberg whose Amblin Television produces Bull. “I have not yet had my meeting with Spielberg, but I cannot help but wonder where the legendary Hollywood director was throughout all of this,” she writes. “I have been a lifelong fan and assumed that if anyone could make changes, it would be Spielberg. Watching the Golden Globes and seeing Spielberg front-and-center wearing a “Time’s Up” pin shortly after my settlement made me especially eager to meet with him.” Dushku, who is recently married and getting her college degree in Boston, said she’s still process all that has happened, but we’re guessing that meeting with Spielberg will be happening sooner rather than later, now that the story is so public.

Meghan Markle Reportedly Didn’t Listen to the Queen About the Drama With Her Dad

The last time Thomas Markle majorly made headlines was around the royal wedding. If you remember, he was expected to attend his daughter Meghan Markle‘s nuptials to Prince Harry, but medical issues ultimately kept him away. The most perplexing part of the situation, though, was his chattiness with the press. Every time there was an update about his royal wedding attendance, Thomas gave a statement to TMZ. He’s kept up this media transparency too, talking to outlets seemingly every chance he gets. Samantha Markle, Meghan’s half-sister, is notorious for doing this as well.

Thomas’ latest media tour is generating just as much buzz as his royal wedding quotes. In a new interview with Good Morning Britain, Thomas says he’s been trying to text Meghan for weeks but hasn’t received a response. He says he’s been “ghosted” by everyone connected to Meghan and wants Queen Elizabeth II, of all people, to help mend this rift.

The Duchess Of Sussex Undertakes Her First Official Engagement With Queen Elizabeth II

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But the queen reportedly has her own opinions about this situation. A new feature from Vanity Fair posits she isn’t too keen on Meghan’s strategy of ignoring the drama with her father.

“[The Queen] was very concerned that it [the Thomas Markle situation] was spiraling out of control, which it was,” one observer tells VF. “Buckingham Palace wanted to be able to do something and be proactive and make the situation go away. It was a direction from the Queen, so her courtiers were under strict instructions to sort it out. But Kensington Palace was not singing from the same hymn sheet, and that was because the message was coming from Meghan. She didn’t want to engage and thought that she could handle it on her own.”

Meghan’s silence on the matter has reportedly ruffled some feathers in the palace. “There was a lot of tension between courtiers within the two royal households, and I think it just got to a point where it was stalemate and, you know, neither could move,” the source added.

From the surface, it appears Meghan’s silence method is prevailing. No one in the royal household has directly commented on the Thomas Markle drama—yet. Of course, we’ll let you know if that changes.

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